I'm up to 159 again. I want to sob. And by 159, I mean, 159 consistently, not just an "I ate a lot" boo hoo. I hate this. I'm on a carb cleanse now. I feel it in my body. I've gained TWO full inches back in my waist. I feel it on my underarms, right where my bra hits.
I'm starting to hate how I look again. After all that work, I'm starting to hate myself again.
I can't get fat. I can't do it.
I'm going for a run. Maybe that'll keep me from crying.
Girl - stay tough! :) This isn't the end of the world, it's just a hiccup in the plan. Keep on moving forward because you know you can do it! Once you get back into your routine your body will feel fabulous again!
ReplyDeleteDon't let it get to you. You have recognized your problem and have a plan to fix it. It is all part of the journey. You can be friends with me and michelle on spark people. (or myfitnesspal which is what i use more.)
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I didn't know you two were on spark people! I've heard good things about it, so I think I'm gonna start up an account and meet you there.
ReplyDeleteThanks you two for your never ending support! <3.
yeah the hardest thing to do is to enter all your info. i am pretty good about it but sometimes i just dont get to it. it is pretty helpful though b/c you can make sure you dont over/under eat.
ReplyDeleteif you dont get results you are liking you can track all the things you did vs all the things you thought you did :-)
I love Sparkpeople! I attribute a large portion of my success to that website. Now I can get a pretty close guess to how many calories I eat in a day and know some basics (like a medium size banana is ~100 calories). :-)
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