My weight is back up in the very high 150s, and because of that, I'm upset. Surprise! I realize that most of this is due to my spring break splurge. And when I say I was a piggy, I mean I was a piggy. It's so much easier for me to eat healthy at school than it is at home and around friends I haven't seen. When I was home for a week I ate:
- Wings
- Ice cream
- Brownies
- Alcohol
- Reeses
- Jellybeans
- Guiness and Beef stew from Ri Ra Uptown
- Bread pudding
- Hamburgers
- Salmon
- Chocolate cake
- Quesadillas
- Perogies
- Fried pickles
And I know that's not all, just what i remember off the top of my head. So I guess I can't blame myself for going from 155 to 160ish in a week. I feel like a sham -- I preach healthy eating, obsess over calories, but this week it was literally like I could not get enough calories in my body. And they were never the good kind. Also, the most exercise I got was playing frisbee and walking the dog.
So now I have a lot to make up for. I'm trying to be better about what I eat, but also be more intuitive. I want to be so skinny I could spit, and honestly, right now I'm so disgusted with myself eating wise, look wise and scale wise that all I can think about is "stop eating all together until you hit a "comfort" number on the scale." This isn't healthy either.
I went to a spinning class yesterday and that was fun. Nearly killed myself. The day before I did a Jillian Michaels 30 day shred workout. Today I'm debating another spinning class, but I've already done the Ab Ripper X workout from p90x. Food has consisted of an apple and a banana.
I keep saying I'm tired of being fat, but really I only have myself to blame. And I'm so ashamed of that.
I actually came on here today and was going to ask what was up. :-) Get back on the horse and just hold on. I have been slipping myself and am about to get back in action. Not to mention it is a pain in the butt doing the verification before posting!
ReplyDeleteI'm gonna do my best, honest! I really have to buckle down. I'm going to start using my calorie counter app again, and on top of that I'm going to work on my cardio again. I've been doing more weights and less cardio and I think that might be part of my problem too. Well, it's all lots of problem, anyway...
ReplyDeleteI have been wondering where you were! :-) I haven't exactly been the picture of health lately. I couldn't work out post surgery - so I've just been getting back into it in the last 2 weeks or so. Plus the time change hit me in the face. Let's all get back to it together! :-)
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