The scale is going up. Why is the scale going up? I'm living on rice cakes and prunes. Okay, not really...but I am eating prunes and not eating "fatty" foods like cheese, chips, cookies, chocolate. This girl in class keeps bringing in chocolate meringue...and I haven't had any. I haven't had cookies or halloween candy or brownies that people bring into class. I make chicken with salsa instead of bacon or cheese. I go for italian dressing instead of ranch.

Why is the scale going up? I feel fatter than ever. I've upped my cardio, I've been doing my weight training. I spend more time moving than sedentary...NOTHING is changing.

I really did just have a huge cry fit. 75% of the clothes in my closet don't fit anymore in the BAD way. I'm frustrated and dishing out a lot of money to get help with this and I'm so tired of it. I'm tired of being fat.

I just want to look like I've made some progress next time I see people from home. I've been here since August 10th and I'm only fatter than I was.