My sleep schedule is all messed up from exams and Auburn, so I'm sleeping in pretty late...and even with that I'm falling asleep with naps and dead tired at 8pm. I tried sleeping at 8 thinking okay, I'll get back on track, but then I woke up at midnight and was up for a good four hours.
I'm eating all the time, too. Or at least, it seems that way since it's more than I ate at school on a regular basis. I don't like it. I miss my gym. Like, a lot. But tomorrow I'm going to try to cut out all sugar until Christmas morning. I realize that's not a lot of time, but what's that saying, it takes 21 days to break a habit and 42 to make a new one? I'm trying y'all, but I'm failing epically.
I've been taking the dog for walks, but I haven't been doing Jillian. I did part of a workout the other day, but I got bored. I just don't have motivation anymore. I'm realizing that so much of my motivation at the gym came from just watching other people. Like "oh, so and so's been here longer than me...I can't leave yet."
I really am going to try to start running again tomorrow and do Jillian. I'm also going to start carrying my water bottle around with me so that maybe I won't be so hungry and snacky all the time. I'm also realizing WHY it's so hard for me to lose weight at home -- no one here EATS HEALTHY!The other day I made a roast in the crock pot with just some spices and seasoning and beef broth. After I'm done and I'm making the sides, my mom turn around and ADD HALF A BLOCK OF CREAM CHEESE!! What the fuck? I would love to say "oh, I'll just get my own food" but no one wants to be that person, and surely no one wants to start a fight with their mom saying "the food you get isn't good enough." Especially when she's just trying to be nice.....
Anyway, it's a work in progress. All of it.
I'm really hoping that come the start of the new year the Gym will have started the kickboxing classes. Please please please PLEASE!
Anyway. Here's to trying again tomorrow.
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